Showing posts with label stuff that bugs the hell out of me. Show all posts
Showing posts with label stuff that bugs the hell out of me. Show all posts

Saturday, 23 August 2008

watch out, I'm in a Patrick Bateman mood

A few things are bugging me today... none of which I can really talk about for fear of being branded a total Bitch Queen from Hell. I am having a real battle with myself, but winning so far.

But I may have to break one or two inexpensive and easily replaceable household items to siphon off my vexation. Managing anger and prudent silence is really bad for my constitution.

Sunday, 4 November 2007

scraping by...

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know, Professor H, I should be trying to do a tad more than my basic 1K... but it's been a struggle these last few days, to be honest. It's 11.13pm now, and I've just scraped by my goal wordcount. And I'm not sure that the actual words themselves are any good... the text feels a bit dead at the moment.

Thing is, I'm allowing myself to get stressed about things that I really shouldn't get stressed about. Stuff that's just not worth it... meaningless in the grander scale of things. But anyone who visits here regularly will know how I am... I fret over things that I ought to laugh off because they're stupid.

Any road up, crap words or no crap words, I've now officially done a third of In Too Deep! So even if it is total horse plop, there'll be time when the first draft's done to fix it.

And that's a comfort...

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Telly: Moto GP, Top Gear
Choc/Yummy: Lindor
Mood: fed up with various stuff
Writing: 1K In Too Deep
Reading: nothing much today
RSI/FMS: very sore generally, plus wrists


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Thursday, 1 November 2007

my mood today

There are so many people annoying me today that I don't even want to begin to list them. I'm in one of my moods of general poisonous resentfulness and ill humour... but fortunately I have one or two nice things that will lift me out of it presently...
  • out to lunch tomorrow with fabulous buddy Saskia Walker!
  • hair looking splendidly blonde now, due to the ministrations of Anne, my hairdresser supreme
  • I still have 20 Eppesodes of Season Three of Numb3rs to watch... mmm Charlie goodness!
  • mmm too for mini choc chip brioches
Not sure if I'll achieve my writing goal today, or tomorrow, but I'm nicely in hand and hey, writing isn't everything in life.

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Telly: see above
Choc/Yummy: see above
Mood: see above
Writing: not yet
Reading: not in the mood
RSI/FMS: sore and tired


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Thursday, 11 October 2007

Slightly curmudgeonly but also indulgent Thursday

Have been feeling pretty weird the last day or so, with a migraine that never fully 'came out' that seems to have somehow generated a general pissed-off-ness about various writing related areas. News I hear, things people say, attitudes and prejudices I encounter all seem to be getting on my nerves... it's not one or even two or three big specific things... it's more a mood, a feeling I get sometimes that all is not right in the world, that there's 'something rotten in the state of Denmark'... well, not actually in Denmark, but in the angsty ennui-loaded Hamlet sort of way... Does that make sense?

It's all very vague, and hard to pin down, but it depresses me and makes me wish, now and then, that I was in some other business. Although God knows what I'd do as I have no other particular talents and having worked for myself so long, I'm more or less unemployable in any conventional type of job.

Crikey, that all seems very grim, doesn't it? I'd probably feel a lot better if I could smash a few things and punch a few people... but realistically, that's not a solution, is it?

I should be working as therapy... but I'm finding it hard to connect to my WIP. I like it and all that, and I'm sure once I start, I'll be okay, but the start-hurdle seems toweringly high today...

All of which is not helped by a small obsession/crush thingoid that seems to be developing that means I'm spending more time than I should watching DVDs. The Divine Vincenzo is still my main man, but I'm starting to really like another guy too... maths genius Charlie Eppes in the quirky FBI show, Numb3rs... isn't he cute?

This Numb3rs thing has got slightly serious in that I really cannot wait for the shows to be on the telly [again, they're repeats actually, as I missed it first time out in the UK] and have ordered all the boxed sets I can get my hands on, even Series 3, which isn't out yet here in the UK. I just hope that it'll play on my multi region...

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Thursday, 4 October 2007

Rage

This was me, yesterday, raging at almost everything! [only I have better teeth] I did no writing and spent most of the day in a state of fury at 'stuff' and inanimate objects that all seemed to conspire against me to stop me achieving anything positive! My printer was playing up, telling me there were paper jams when there were nothing of the sort... Tried to do a back up to my new[ish] Porsche designed hard drive... Porsche? Don't make me ****ing well laugh! The speed this stupid thing was transferring had more in common with that trolley thing that pulls Space Shuttles out of the Vertical Assembly Building, only in this case, towed by geriatric snails! Had to abandon the back up as my calculations predicted it would take around seven years... grr... Obviously something is wrong there, and I suspect it might be my USB driver or summink like that... Only trouble is if I start getting into diagnostics that's just another thing to stop me writing!

On a plus note, I did manage to free up a bit of space at the side of the bed by moving some books and throwing out some papers, but it's just marginal really. I can move there now, though, so that's a plus...

Today, I am going to write something! I'm not going to get distracted by 'stuff' and I'm going to resist the urge to hang out too long at my favourite blogs and boards. And I'm not going to get sidetracked into promo stuff again today either... either written, or graphicky... Like I said, if I don't actually write anything, what the bleeding hell is there going to be to promote????


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Tuesday, 4 September 2007

The Good, the Good and Ugly

The Good...

I've just heard back from my critique partner about GOTHIC HEAT... and she loves it! I'm blown away by the great things she's said about it... 'Rafe is perfect'... ooh... and also almost faint with relief that I seem to have managed to produce something readable after the titanic struggle I've had with this mutha! Anyone who calls here regularly will know how I've wrestled and wrestled with GH, and the huge doubts I've had about it, but now that I've had such a positive response from someone whose judgement I trust, I feel much, much better and can look forward happily to the publication process.

The Good...

The latest of a number of lovely reviews for OBJECT OF DESIRE... This one's from Lacey at Romance Junkies.

With a sexy premise and enjoyable characters, Portia da Costa created a wonderful, highly erotic tale. The story captivates the reader from beginning to end, enveloping them in a world of possible fantasies becoming reality. OBJECT OF DESIRE is a fun, fast read that had me smiling and sighing the entire time. I look forward to reading Ms. Da Costa’s future works.

Isn't that fab?

The Ugly...

FUNGAL SPORE POLLEN!!!!

I've had gallopingly vile rhinitis for the last couple of days, so much so that my head's just felt as if it's about to explode. I know I'm prone to allergies, and hayfever like symptoms, so I just thought I'd check the BBC Weather site for pollen levels... and discovered that Fungal Spore Pollen is at astronomical highs at the moment. So there's yer answer... and apparently this filth is lurking in the atmosphere until November and it can affect you indoors as well as outside... Oh joy!!!!

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Telly: thing about Dick Turpin
Choc/Yummy: Turkish Delight
Mood: good
Writing: nothing today
Reading: nothing today
RSI/FMS: pollen!!!


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Tuesday, 17 July 2007

frivolity v. stress


Wahey, my Kevin and Perry CD arrived this morning! So I'm currently enjoying some bangin' Ibiza classics and dialogue snippets from the film. Yeah, I know it's a silly movie in a lot of ways, but I like it... sometimes, it's just nice to escape into total daftness and not to have to worry about any kind of intellectual significance and all that stuff. K&P is sort of like good old British Carry On but with a much better soundtrack... and beneath all the crudity and rudeness, I do think there's a surprisingly warm heart.

Anyway, it's serving its purpose in taking my mind off something I've been mulling over for a day or two, and which prompted my chainsaw post, further down. I've wrestled with this issue before, and it doesn't seem to go away... one of these days it'll come to a head, and I'll have to act, but for the moment, I'm wimping out and procrastinating... The sad thing is though, with my head screwed by this shit, it's hard to write and yet another day is speeding past without anything done towards Sweat70, which pains me because I started so well, and felt it was really, really benefitting me. But I will get back to it... I promise, Mr Blue and Sven, I will get back on track... Nil bastardi carborundum and all that...

On the plus side, while I'm not actually creating new fiction in the form of GOTHIC HEAT, I'm free to concentrate on checking the proofs of an older work which is about to see a new lease of life... ie. the second of my forthcoming Total-E-Bound ebook releases, WILD IN THE COUNTRY.


Oh my, this book is mad! But in a good way... I'd say it's sort of an erotic romance, because there's a central relationship, and a love story that develops and suggests HEA, but alongside that, it's really one of the craziest, most pervy and bonkathonical shagoramas I've ever written. Sort of like a giant loving menage story involving half the inhabitants of an English country village. LOL

Issa hoot!!!

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Telly: listening to K&P instead
Choc/Yummy: seashell choc bar
Mood: stressed
Writing: proof checking WITC
Reading: WITC & Dark Lover/JR Ward
RSI/FMS: sore and weary


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