I've come to the conclusion that I should never completely get off the merry-go-round of writing, no matter how ill or tired or uninspired I feel.If I ever stop writing for a day, it's twice as hard to start again the next day, and three times as hard if I leave it a couple of days... and so on, and so on. And so the feeling grows and perpetuates until writing becomes some horrible, hated monster I just can't face.
I've been falling off the merry-go-round quite a bit in this last month or two. Health problems, other worries, life crap and other disappointments have all put me again and again in a 'I'll take a break today' mood and those 'day' breaks have turned into longer and longer intervals between writing. And this just won't do!!!!
These gaps make me easily forget that I *can* actually write, and even if I'm not one of these golden, talented writers who everybody adores, I am quite good at some aspects of the craft, and quite a few people *do* love what I do! :)
I also forget how much I *enjoy* writing, if I don't do it. I somehow manage to block all memory of the pleasure I experience from writing, and only remember the hard aspects of it, like coming up with plots and ideas... I focus on my shortcomings instead of relishing and celebrating my strengths.
So, from today onwards, I will be engaged in attempt no. #23,742 to write a little bit of something every single day, even if I don't feel like it and haven't the foggiest idea what project to work on! Call this me getting an early start on my New Year's Resolutions!
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Portia, I realise I am now definitely verging on mad fangurl territory, but I just have to say- you *are* one of those golden talented writers who everyone adores. Most people don't even manage to get one book published. Or they get one published, and it sinks without a trace. Or they get another published, but then their career stalls. They get dropped by their publishers. They never get a single review on Amazon or Mrs Giggles or other places that matter.
You have written for Black Lace- the top erotica publisher, to my mind- for over *ten years*. Isn't it more like fifteen?
Your books are consistently popular. In Too Deep is just as good as what most erotica fans consider a classic- The Stranger.
I've read almost every Black Lace title put out, but there are very few that I've kept for ten years. I still have the original cover copy of The Stranger.
I'm sure a lot of people do. Most people don't know the names of people like Alina Reyes and Nancy Madore. But they know your name.
I only hope I can have a career half as successful as yours.
/end rant.
Keep being awesome,
Charlotte
Thanks for your kind words, Charlotte! I tend to be very hard on myself and get cross with myself when I slack off and waste time. And I've been doing that a lot lately... not writing because I just don't 'feel' like it.
But I'm going to do better in the New Year! :)
You'll get your mojo back. It always comes back. And I'll gush til the cows come home if it helps in any tiny way at all.
Merry Christmas, Portia!
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