Thursday, 28 December 2006

back again... sort of...

Oh, it's hard, very hard, to get into the groove again after Christmas. In an ideal world, I'd just stay with this vibe... leisurely days where I get up late, watch telly most of the day, breaking off now and again to eat something delicious or have a natter with himself about something fairly inconsequential... A totally relaxed carry on, no worrying and fretting about writing at all, just chilling out, spending time with the cats... pure bliss. I don't think I'd miss writing at all if I had the money to opt out... I suppose I'd get bored eventually and maybe start writing bits and pieces of self indulgence, just to amuse myself... but think how much more pleasurable a kind of writing that would be when I could just doodle along doing exactly what I wanted and not fret about editorial guidelines or emerging market trends.

Still, it's not a perfect world, and I'm going to have to get back in the saddle sooner rather than later because I have a zillion things to do. But it's tough to focus... even on this babble here. I flit around the blogs and everybody else seems to be getting with the program. Reflecting thoughtfully on what they've achieved in 2006 or looking forward to what they'll be doing, or having published in 2007. Also making resolutions and worthy plans for career strategies or working methods in the coming year... Me? Well, just the thought of it makes me want to run round the house screaming in panic and waving my hands about!!! It's all so hard... there's so much to do... my 'writing head' seems to have turned to Christmas pudding, and I can barely seem to string two words together any more... I just want to crawl back to bed, and only pop my head out from under the covers to eat some chocolate or watch a repeated movie I've seen a dozen times before...
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Telly: anything and everything
Chocolate: Cadbury's Chocolate Biscuit Selection
Mood: suppressed panic
Writing: not a word
Reading: Radio Times
RSI: unexpected sore, given I'm not doing anything!

4 comments:

Nikki Magennis said...

I'm with you Portia. Back under the covers! Everyone working this week is doing so half heartedly I reckon...

Thanks so much for the chocs! I was ever so restrained and didn't open anything till the day.

And then ate everything all at once in a fury of roast and fried and port-soaked, chocolate-covered indulgence.

Here's to the New Year, hope you have a great one and may our trousers still close at the top button...

xx

Portia Da Costa said...

I recommend drawstring and/or elasticated waist trousers... V. 'old lady' but much more viable at this time of year after all the gorging!

Saskia Walker said...

Great to see you back online! :)

Nikki Magennis said...

Portia, can you somehow see my sitting here in my saggy trackie bottoms? Oh my, I'm embarrassed...