Thursday, 30 November 2006

better

Well, most of you will have noticed that normal service hasn't actually been the order of the day here for a while... However, having just had a chat with my agent, I now feel a bit better. I think she's managed to talk me down [or maybe up] from a very, very severe and crippling case of author paranoia... and now I feel a tad more positive about things. Writing is a v. lonely business and it's dangerously easy to slip into feelings of powerlessness and negativity due to the downs and downs of the writerly life. I've been sliding downhill for a couple of weeks now, due to things I've heard, and things I've started to imagine, and the tin hat on it all was having a short story rejected. Now, the ed. said that even though he liked it, and thought the set up was interesting, he felt the ending was contrived, and my agent said it wasn't one of my best either... but I love the bloody thing! I think it's warm and romantic and funny and positive... and it gives me a fuzzy happy feeling to read it back. Trouble is, I think it's just too 'nice' really, too feelgood... not cutting edge or innovative or anything like that, and foolishly, I'd given it a very funny but impactful title and I wouldn't be surprised if that's what subconsciously put the mockers on it! Anyway, it can't be all that bad if I actually like it so much myself, and I'm cautiously optimistic that one day I'll find a different home for it.

Any road up, after my chat with my agent, I feel as if I've recovered my direction a bit better... and it helps too that she says she thinks I'm as good a writer as ever, and that if I hang in there, and don't allow myself to fall prey to doubts and fears, I'll achieve my goals. It just takes a while...
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Telly: nothing yet
Chocolate: Ritter Marzipan
Mood: better
Writing: nothing yet, but have goals
Reading: my humongous nPower bill... omigod!!!!!
RSI: quite sore in various places

5 comments:

Margaret McDonagh said...

So sorry about your short story, I really hope you find another home for it soon. Good to know you are feeling better after speaking to your editor. You CAN do this. You have a lot of talent, readers who love your books, and friends who believe in you. I know it is hard when things are not going so well and I agree, too, that writing can be very lonely and isolating, but keep the faith, you have what it takes.

Love,
Mags

val said...

Wendy, here's a thought. I've only ever had things published in Your Cat magazine, the two stories being about my cat Beano, who has had a very colourful life, including having a cancerous eye removed age 4 and getting locked into someone's house over New Year where there was warmth, food and water, while I was dreading he was cold, starving and injured.

What I'm getting at is, how about writing something about your cats - possibly about Boy - and submitting it? It only pays £40-50, but it's quite cathartic.

~ann~ said...

I don't know how any writer can keep up the momentum or the discipline.... it looks like bloody hard work

I love Ritter Marzipan, and Ritter Peppermint and the white one with hazelnuts... yummy

lotsa luv ann xxxx

Nikki said...

Better? Glad to hear it my dear!

xx

Wendy Wootton said...

Hi guys...

I did once send off for info about writing stories for Your Cat... but nobody ever replied to me! It was a long time ago though.

Will find another home for that story somewhere... even if it means a bit of a rewrite. :)